Worst Day Of An Idol Fans' Life - Graduation and Oshihening - My Story

I am once again going to go on a strange path with this post. So just stick with me. Please? As you have seen in my post regarding my "obsession" with AKB48, I listed all of my favorite members at the time and at the bottom under the SKE section, I listed my "kami-oshi" as Matsui Rena. Now, I had really liked Rena-chan for about a year at that point (no creepiness intended). She is the young woman that got me into Nogizaka46 and also into SKE48. I watched countless variety shows involving her and she made me smile. Then came the day, I will never, as a AKB48 fan, forget. That day came on June 10th, 2015. It started as any normal day like an idol fan like myself. Check Facebook. Check YouTube. Check Reddit. Check Instagram and last but not least check Twitter. When I checked Twitter that afternoon, something felt "off" about it. I scrolled through my timeline to discover tweets stating that Rena will make a announcement on ANN (All Night Ni